Tragedy and Anger

Here I was saying that I wanted to stay away from depressing posts, but something happened on Friday that had a whole country shook up with anger and sorrow and a slew of emotions and shock!  I had a babysitting job that morning and I came home and checked my FB for messages and I saw a post from George Takei stating that he wouldn't be posting any more that day because of the terrible tragedy in Connecticut.  I didn't know what that was all about so I looked it up on the News search engine.  I could not believe what I was reading!!!!  Innocent, precious children and loving school staff brutally murdered in cold blood and for who knows what reason!!!  Immediately, my heart was filled with sorrow, but over the course of the day, I was shook with anger that some ass wipe could even think of going to a school to shoot it up and hurt innocent little kids!!!!  And now I have a bunch of mixed feelings about guns.

Yes I know that guns don't kill people, people kill people.  And I see a lot of gun rights supporters stating this.  I agree.  It is the same thing to say that my pencil failed my final, not me.  The guns don't have lives of their own.  Some believe that gun control won't really do jack shit.  I disagree.  I know that under the second amendment, we have the right to bear arms. And I am all for that amendment, but I believe that there needs to be stricter rules.  I do not see the need for someone to be in possession of a semi-auto.  For what purpose do you need this type of gun to protect yourself?  Semi-autos were used in the Sandy Hook massacre and the damage was way worse than had the gun been a single shot.  Most of those children had three to eleven fucking wounds in their bodies.  Three to eleven!!!!!!  Yeah I am mad!!!! How the hell could you do that to ANYBODY????  And the sad thing is that the gun(s) used were legally purchased and obtained, yet a crazy piece of shit still got a hold of them.  My question for people is:  If you all don't want to see more gun control, what are we going to do and what are we going to enforce to stop these assholes from obtaining weapons to do harm?  Many of these perps never had a police record and have appeared sane on the outside and people would never dream that they would ever do harm to another human being.  What can we do to prevent this????  I really don't know.  I personally think it is a next to impossible feat. But we do need to rethink about what we can or cannot allow.  I'm sorry but people do not need to own a goddamn semi-auto for ANY REASON!.  One who is well versed in gun skills can protect themselves with a rifle or pistol.  And before you all accuse me of being a gun rights hater or what not,  no I do not hate guns, I am NOT against the second amendment.  We own several rifles.  I like the idea of feeling safe by having a way to defend myself if I need to.  But my faith in humanity has greatly been reduced.

Another thing that angers me is that people say stupid shit like "How could God let this happen?"  "He really doesn't give a fuck because he allowed this to happen!"  blah blah blah.  When God created humanity (for those of you left who still believe in Him, which I don't think is that many of you since religion has become next to obsolete these days!) He gave us the privilege of Free Will.  He gave us the right to make our own decisions.  He could have very well said, "Well no I am going to make EVERY decision for you.  You cannot do or think for yourself..  But He didn't.  So it isn't that God let this happen.  WE let it happen by acting on Free Will.  It is OUR decisions that cause tragedies like this.  It is also OUR decision that cause good things in the world to happen to.  But if God came down and saved every one from every tragedy and act of violence, then how are we supposed to learn and grow from our mistakes?  We need to look at ourselves and make the change.  That isn't to say that God isn't there to guide us.  He is.

However, this has also taught me to appreciate who and what I have in my life and to cherish those with every fibre of my being.  And really enjoy the time spent with loved ones and appreciate all they have done for me and appreciate all what the Lord has provided for me and my family and friends. So whilst I am sorrowful for the victims and have said many prayers for them,  I still want to enjoy my family this Holiday season and give thanks for all the Wonderful things in my life.

PHOTO OF THE DAY:
Seven months ago, my baby niece Evelyn was born.  She arrived into the world a healthy baby and she has wonderful parents and family who love and cherish her always.  I get to see her in about a week.  I love you baby Evelyn!

I wish Life came with a big eraser.

I always want to try and be upbeat in my posts, but today I have been feeling rather melancholy. Usually, I do not want to put depressing entries on here because I do not want to sound EMO and I do not want to drag you all down with my problems.  I want to be able to make you all smile.  But I am doing so today because sometimes writing out my feelings helps to get it off my chest and not keep it in.  Basically, (and I know ALL of us have felt this way at least once during our lives) I wish that life came with a way to erase the bad and unhappy or bad mistakes.  Today, amidst the packing frenzy, I went to the car to get my sheet about my assignment due today. (I have an assignment for school and I told Mother that I would work on packing and cleaning, but that I must get this paper done.  I did not want to be the only one to not turn in a paper! No sirree Bob!)  I came across some stuff in the car that brought up a lot of old demons from my past and from that point forward, I felt like a thousand big rocks were weighing me down.  This is going to prompt me to clean out my truck and get rid of useless shit.  But the fact remains that this incident that I am referring to is always going to leave a scar on me, no matter what.  I told myself that it is the past and that I have to get over it.  Yet not everything is easy to just drop and forget.  Yes, I should move on but there is no forgetting such an awful thing.  That is only human to feel that way.  And I wonder what would I say or do if I came across the individuals involved???  I would have to fight the urge to want to do them harm.  In all reality, I would just ignore them and keep walking away.  They are not and never were worthy of my attention or acknowledgement.  And yes I am a firm believer of karma.  People that hurt other people for their own malicious reasons get their due.  I may not be a witness to that, but I have some satisfaction knowing that it will happen.  Not a very Christian view, I know. But like I said, I am human.  The Lord Jesus always said "Turn The Other Cheek."  I actually feel like I have done that a lot in my life, but the reward I get for that is being stepped over.  It is a fine line.  So when I feel like this, I always  know that I can turn to the Lord for guidance.  And I am able to draw strength from that.  Already I feel a lot better just being able to get this out.

Well, as always I must run.  I finished my assignment and now back to packing.
Oh, boy!!!!!
Stay cool.

PHOTO OF THE DAY:
This was one of our little ducklings we had a long time ago.  I love his little "fro.

Busy, busy, busy

It's the holiday season.  And everybody is always running around like chickens with their heads cut off.  And yes, I do know what that looks like.  We used to butcher our own chickens and it is true about them running around and around whilst being headless.  But I am busy and it isn't completely holiday related.  You see, I am finally getting my house renovated.  Well if you can call it a house.  Basically it is just a workshop on the back of my parent's property but finally were we able to obtain a building permit to have it converted into living quarters.  For ten years, I have been without plumbing.  So imagine having to take a leak in the middle of the night and  having to trudge into my parent's house.  Yeah no fun!!!!!  It will be so nice to have my very own bathroom and kitchen.

On Monday, one of those storage pod things are getting delivered and then I have to box everything up and move it into the pod.  We actually just got done moving the piano into my parent's house and let me tell ya, that was some feat!!!  It is rather a small piano, standing at only about 3 feet tall but boy does it weigh a ton!!!  My brother and I attempted to move it without any tools but that didn't work.  So I went to UHaul to rent out two furniture dollies.  Well we finally were able to wrestle that beast out of the door onto the dollies but they wouldn't easily roll because in the country, and especially after a rainfall, the ground tends to be mushy, muddy and wet!  No nice concrete slabs like you all have in the city!  No sirree Bob! So I suggested that we find a piece of board or two to use as a sort of "moveable walkway" that the dollies could easily slide across. So with the help of my brother, sister, and Mum, we were able to truck it into the front yard of the main house, but getting up those stairs would be a bitch.  Well, the friendly neighbour across the street offered to help.  I was also able to enlist help from our next door neighbour, who had straps which helped us easier get the piano in through the front door.  It was an hour and a half of hard work but we finally were successful in getting the darn thing into the house.  Though I'll admit without Les and Dwight's help, we would have been up shit creek.  But anyway, it's over and done with.  Now I am just nursing a few pinch wounds on my hands and chest, but I will survive.  The sucky thing is that when my house is finished, we have to move the SOB back, but I am hoping to enlist the help of our contractor.

I am on the last stretch for school this year and then I have a month off.  I finished my paper today and have one more to write before Wednesday.  Then we will have our finals on Thursday and then WINTER BREAK!  Hooray!!! Then I can focus on getting ready for Christmas!  Oh, boy!!!! I may need to rent me some elves so that I will be able to get all my gifts for family done in time.

Now I am going to stuff my face with some dinner because boy, oh boy did I work up an appetite after the whole piano fiasco.

Adios!  :)

PHOTO OF THE DAY:
If only I knew where I could get these underwears.  Professor Snape undies, what a wonderful invention! :3

Keeping a diary, not like the old days.

     I have  not done a blog since MySpace.  And that was several years ago.  I was younger then and I know I sounded so silly and teenager-ish in those posts.  I am not saying that I won't sound the same way here, but I am older and wiser and I think I can put things in writing in a bit more mature way than several years ago.  I highly doubt many people will read this anyway, but the purpose of this blog is to write down my feelings and interests for whoever may be interested in reading about them, but also to use this as an instrument for me to look at my life through my written words.  It is always fun to look back at old blogs or in my day, paper bound diaries that had the cheap ass lock on there and you kept it by your bed to read and write into at night, or giggle at the entries with your girlfriends during a sleep over, or that your brother stole from your room and broke off the cheap ass lock and laughed heartily at all the drooling entries about Luke Perry and New Kids on The Block.  Mind you, those aforementioned things were NOT in my diary; that was merely an example.  My diary would consist of Star Trek crushes and music that I recorded off the radio and more Star Trek crushes, and how mad the parents could make me.

     I hope that I will keep up with this "blog" as this generation calls it.  I would like to share a whole bunch of things on here.  New baking ventures, how my garden is doing, funny pictures of my pets, and yes I will do a few entries of my most favourite celebrities.  These will most likely include, in no particular order:  Vincent Irizarry, Alan Rickman, Connor Trinneer, and Scott Bakula.  So if people gushing over their fave celebs is not your thing, then don't read the post.  Simple.  But kudos to you if you decide to brave reading my silly ass entries.

     I look forward to sharing myself and my life with all of you (or at least the people who choose to "follow" me.)  I probably have taken enough of your time already.  So I tip my hat to you with a hasty "Au Revoir."

PHOTO OF THE DAY:
Here is a picture of me with one of our orphan kittens.  Isn't she the cutest thing?  She has found a forever home now, but I occasionally think of all the little kittens we have had pass through our home.